Jupitersterrain 5

christina.bennet was totally borked ... flanked by two old school agony aunt style social worker she proceeded with a carefully prepared prescription of what I ought to do with my life ... some of which I was going to do anyway ... the jealous old bat ... 

and having a bossy finger wagging at me doesnt really help ... and I need to think about whether its appropriate for me to have a home group at this point ... what with my being harrassed by the media ... or maybe spend more time on the internet actually challenging the decisions being made to bork me by sedentary gossips while Im out instead of going to the borked meeting ...

or whether to go to a singing or healing group where you wouldnt get these spam fritter shares. That is not what Alanon is about ... is sick behaviour ... or maybe the food programme would be more difficult to infiltrate ... also in the run up to the camping trip theyll be sharpening their knives a bit more ...

you know and she actually appealed for anonymity with this  because were um like not supposed to talk about each other outside the meeting ... erm right ... really stops me watering my flowers this kind of interfering ... being watched and monitored all the time by desexualised robots ... and her being paid for it like in step 14 ...

and then Vide says that you will do anyway what you were going to do in the first place even though you have been given orders to do it ... what a total headfuck ... people ordering you to let go ... like as if its that simple and nifty ... nifto grifto we used to say ... tickety boo ... course Christina did worry for her own sanity at times ... but was too frightened to see a psychiatrist even when she nearly mowed someone down in her car driving up a road the wrong way ... 

and this isnt all about just one person actually you know Im not buying this kind of control any more and would be considered cowardly if I did ... even if yous have to kill me I dont care ...

spending more time on the housework is hardly going to help that is a bonkers idea designed to make you even more bonkers ... 


11.08.12. , 18.02